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Friday, 25 January 2019

Women of Colour cycling group - is it necessary?

Look Mum No Hands! Cafe in London holds various types of events and regular meet-ups. One group they have formed is a Women of Colour meet-up. The first meeting was held in December of last year, and another meeting took place a few days ago. It will now become a monthly event.

First Women of Colour cycling group at Look Mum No Hands

I went to the first one, as I was a little curious to see how the meet-up went, and as someone who likes to meet different people in cycling I was looking forward to meeting new folks. Also, being an experienced bike rider and someone quite involved in the cycling community I was looking forward to sharing lots of information about the cycling scene and giving tips to anyone wanting advice.

This group was an initiative borne out of an article written by a woman who bemoaned the fact that she hardly saw any women of colour when she took part in the Ride London 100 last summer. She also claimed to have encountered white MAMILS (middle-aged men in lycra) who gave her "uncomfortable gazes" at the cycle event, or "microagressions" from white males as they overtook her when commuting.

This was then picked up on by the likes of Jools Walker (aka Lady Velo), Jenni Gwiazdowski and Ayesha McGowan, an Afro-American bidding to become the first black female professional racer, who felt that there was a need to group together black women who don't feel that they can get into cycling because they don't see anyone who looks like them.

As someone who has known Jools since 2011, when I interviewed her at the Tweed Run cycle ride for Cycling Weekly magazine, I felt I would support her cause, so I attended the event. (I arrived a bit late as I had been at fitness class that evening.)

There were quite a few women, including Ayesha McGowan who linked up to the meeting from her home in the United States via Skype. Although I missed the early part of the meeting it seemed that a lot of the women talked about how they never received encouragement to get into cycle riding, and felt uncomfortable when they did group rides because they didn't feel they identified with anyone.

Some felt they were ignored, and didn't feel confident about getting involved; others talked about being passed over by marketing companies to become brand ambassadors, or that black women cycling are not represented in the media.

While I believe every word of what the women say, I still find it hard to say that there is a racial or discrimination problem, or even that black women are excluded from getting into cycling.

That has not been my experience at all, and I have never perceived any barriers to entry or discrimination.

No one in my family was particularly into cycling apart from me. My dad bought a Peugeot bike in the 80s and I had a go on it a few times, but generally my parents didn't like me cycling. I have two sisters, neither of whom ride a bike and have never shown a particular interest in doing so even though they are aware of all the activity I do on two wheels.

I grew up in an area where we were the only black family. There were local people who were happy for me to join their cycling groups, however I didn't have the means to join in as they would meet up far from where I lived.

My dad wouldn't let me use his bike, and in any case living in a remote village in Yorkshire with no public transport, where the nearest cycling group was 10 miles away, meant I couldn't join in. My parents were certainly not going to let me cycle all the way there. And there was no way they would encourage me, as a teenager to ride on public roads. They were quite against the idea of "serious cycling".

Over the years I did bits and pieces of cycling, as described in my 52 Cycling Voices, and eventually got into regular club cycling almost 20 years ago and have really enjoyed it since. Various people have given me support and encouragement with my cycling - men, women, black people, white people, including MAMILS!

Through cycling I got into journalism and testing out kit for brands. It is true that I have only seen a few black men out cycling, and practically no black women, but I never saw it as a problem and I assumed that if they were interested in cycling they would have come along to the different activities. After all, I was taking part - and if I could take part, anyone can. The number of black women in cycling is slowly increasing now though.

The thing is, I still can't say that the lack of black people cycling should be a barrier to entry.

In fact the biggest barriers I have faced were from my own folks! My parents did not want me to ride, thinking it was too dangerous. My dad always used to say people who cycle on public roads just want to kill themselves!

My mum couldn't understand why anyone would want to ride more than a few miles if they could travel around by car. Black women that I met when I moved to London found it a bit strange that I would like to ride a bike. At dinner parties, mentioning bike riding was more of a conversation stopper!

Dinner party host: "Did you find the place okay?"
Me: "Yes, I cycled over - it was quite straightforward."
Dinner party host: "Hmm.... I never understand cyclists - they always get in the way on the road."

When I was growing up, getting around by bicycle was seen as something you did because you didn't have access to a car. Doing recreational bike riding as a child is fair enough. But cycling around as an adult was just a sign of failure - that you hadn't managed to find a job that paid you enough to buy a car! Moreover, people wanted to show off their wealth by having a decent car. Not a Ford or a Hyundai - an Audi or BMW at least!
My parents just didn't understand the concept of cycling as a sport, and they were not the only black people to think like that. It just seemed to be a cultural thing to not specifically opt to ride a bike as a mode of transport or for leisure. Some black men would consider it - my dad was among those since he did buy a racing bike - but black women would never dream of doing it.

I would say this cultural tendency was a bigger barrier to entry for me, than any white MAMIL! I too have done the Ride London 100 a few times, and never got any strange looks from anyone. In fact for a while I joined a chain of guys who didn't mind me being there and I hung on until my legs turned to lead after Leith Hill!

Finish line of the 2017 Ride London 100 
People have been saying "if you can't see it, you can't be it," meaning that you can't become something if you don't see people who look like you doing it. I can't say I identify with that phrase at all.

Fair enough, if I had seen other black women cycling I may or may not have found it inspiring. In any case, there were no such sights when I was a child. (If there had been, what is there to say that another black woman is "like me". Just because we are both black doesn't mean that we are the same, or have anything in common!)

How would a white man feel if they were told that they looked like Nigel Farage or Prince William or Brad Pitt! Or white woman being told she looks like Katie Price, or Adele or Fiona Bruce. No one would ever lump all these people into one unit and say that they look like each other. So why folks refer to black people in similar terms just has me at a loss. Anyone who says black people all look like each other would be accused of being racist, but yet this is the premise that is being used when discussing getting into cycling. And as for forming a group based on people's colour - really?

I still got inspired into bike riding when I saw a few of the young local men on road bikes around South Yorkshire, or the men on TV riding the Tour de France.

These Italians, Spanish or Irish guys who looked nothing like me still made me dream of riding up a mountain pass in Europe - and I eventually did so for the first time on a Graham Baxter Sports Tours training camp in Spain in 2000. I was the only black person in the party of around 60 participants, but it didn't bother me one jot. And I had fun on that trip.

At no point did I ever feel that I should join a group of other black female cyclists, or black cyclists. I have only ever been interested in joining groups of pleasant people I can get on with, who have similar interests to mine. I find it hard to see how being black and female would be the basis for forming any group.

There are various statistics around cycling. According to Cycling UK, in 2017 4% of the population rode their bike more than once a week, and 5% rode between two and five times a week.

White people were three times more likely than people of South Asian and Chinese origin to cycle more than three times a week, rising to four times more likely than people of black origin.

Another Cycling UK survey reported 8% of women in the UK describe themselves as regular cyclists (compared with 20% of men). So the figures for black women who cycle, will naturally be very low.

There are various explanations for the low number of women cyclists; it can be because of such issues around confidence and negative experiences on the road from motorists - things which aren't race-specific.

A survey by Transport for London did cite family responsibilities such as caring for children and other family members as a barrier to cycling for some ethnic minority women.

I am not querying these statistics, but for me the bottom line is and will always be about not allowing reports and statistics to bog me down, and just getting out there and doing the thing I want to do.

As for the other points around representation, brand ambassadors or finding cycling groups where one can feel comfortable, there are various responses to that.

Transport for London marketing photo

On representation: Many years ago, when I first got into racing, British Cycling published a full-page photograph of me in action in their events calendar. I was wearing full club kit, with my race face on. It was quite a shock to see my mug plastered next to "March", but one can't say I was invisible!

Some years after that I was photographed along with a few others as part of a marketing campaign for the old Sky Rides. I regularly see photos of black women in Transport for London's marketing materials on cycling.

Plus, as a writer for the former Time Inc magazine, Cycling Active I was regularly featured in photo shoots to accompany the feature articles I wrote.

So I find it hard to say there is no representation. In fact, considering that black people make up only 5% of the UK population, and black women represent an even lower number than that, it wouldn't be realistic to expect to see loads of women of colour in a campaign - particularly as so few ride a bike anyway.

If black women would want to see themselves represented more in cycling campaigns, then more black women need to get out on their bikes. The facilities are available for them to take up cycling.

There are Breeze Rides, Cycling UK rides, Regional women's cycling groups on-line forums, and a Velovixen forum specifically for women cyclists. There is no reason for any woman to say there are no opportunities to cycle - regardless of race.

I, myself set up a women's local cycle racing group with some other women in 2010. We appealed to women of all levels to join, and we organised rides for beginners too. We marketed this on-line and through the cycling media, but no black women turned up. Now I was racing at the time, and was regularly photographed racing, as well as writing updates about the races in the cycling media; therefore one can't say I was invisible.

So much for "If you can't see it, you can't be it"! There was every possibility for those black women who wanted to try cycling, to have a go - particularly as we had groups for beginners.

As for ambassador programmes - that is extremely competitive for anyone who applies. With hundreds of applicants, the odds of being selected are always going to be stacked against you, particularly as marketing managers want to see specific evidence that an individual's cycling activity fits with the essence of their brand, as well as them having a social media following. There are plenty of white people whose applications are rejected!

Getting into club cycling and doing it regularly is not especially easy for anyone, regardless of gender, race or the level people would like to achieve. You may well have to go out of your comfort zone at times, as well as reading and researching around the subject.

That is just part and parcel of trying any new physically demanding activity. I am not saying that prejudices and issues don't exist in society, but I am inclined first to remember that we have a responsibility to put in the effort if we want to achieve an outcome, and we shouldn't be so quick to attribute difficulties in progressing, to society somehow excluding groups of people.

So from a personal standpoint, a specific cycling group for black women isn't really necessary. Such groups that set me apart because of my colour give me a feeling at best that I have some sort of special need because I'm not like other folks (which I don't believe is the case), and at worst someone is trying to bring back Apartheid!

I won't completely rule out going along to these meet-ups if there are specific people I would like to talk to there.

However, I am not interested in joining a moan-fest of people talking about being downtrodden, excluded, second class citizens, the struggle, blah blah blah.

At the meet-up there was talk of organising rides, and I would be happy to do some - though my rides will be defined by the terrain, route and level/speed, and not by people of a particular race or colour. They will be open to any woman (or man even) who wants to come along.



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Thursday, 31 August 2017

52 Cycling Voices - 14: Ayesha McGowan

Ayesha McGowan is bidding to become the first female African-American road racer with a pro contract. We have seen female African-Americans push back boundaries in tennis with the Williams sisters, and at the Rio Olympics Simon Biles was a real revelation in the gymnastics arena. So this wave had to eventually come round to cycling.

So when Ayesha was in London, in July en route to Belgium for some cycle racing I managed to scoot over to her base in East London where we met up one Sunday afternoon and she told me about her life as a biker in the States.


Ayesha McGowan, aged 30

From: Georgia, United States

Lives, El Sobrante, California, United States

Occupation: Cycle racer and part-time music teacher

I got into cycle racing in 2014 when I tried out the Red Hook crits. It was my first race - not the easiest race to start with, racing with a track bike on the road! 

This was the first time that they were doing a separate women’s race to encourage bigger fields, and it was super-fun. After my first Red Hook in Brooklyn, I did the one in Milan later that year (2014), and then again in Brooklyn the following year. 
I then decided to focus on crit racing, and I rode in the velodrome too.
I am part of an elite state team, Jakroo Factory/Chrome Industries, which I got into when I was invited to join the team by a woman who races on the circuit with me.

We’ve got big names in cycling - like Amber Neben, Coryn Rivera, Ellen Noble, Katie Compton who does cyclo cross. But when I looked to see which black girls are racing and I couldn’t find any I thought I would just do it myself and become the first black female pro road racer!

The most racing experience I've had has been in criteriums, but I am working towards being a better all-rounder. I consider myself to be more of a sprinter, though I am also working on my time trialling. 

It didn’t feel like I had a particular “I’m becoming and athlete” moment. There was just a natural transition from someone who rode a bike all the time, to someone riding competitively. Even now I think of myself as just a cyclist rather than athlete, which is a strange balance really.


I do many things in cycling and racing bikes is one of them. It doesn’t define me. I don’t think I have a defining thing. 

www.aquickbrownfox.com
I teach music and get the summer off to go racing around the States and beyond. Also I work for a non-profit organisation that hires bikes for people with disabilities, and I manage a blog, as well as being involved in advocacy and campaigning for safer bike-riding.

It's hard to juggle, but I focus my racing during those 2.5-3 months in the summer when I am constantly on the road.

There’s only a handful of other black women racers that I know about who race in the lower categories. As it’s alarmingly rare to see black women racing, I can be a novelty to people.

I’ve had someone call me a unicorn to my face, not knowing anything about me, or what I’m trying to do or what I’m trying to accomplish. He was just so surprised to see me that he called me a unicorn. It was like, well unicorns aren’t real – or if they are they are very rare. I just nodded and smiled and was very polite, but I wasn’t too pleased! I’m sure his intentions were good, but the impact wasn’t great.

This doesn’t put me off racing, and I kind of understand why people would say things like that, but it doesn’t make it right. That’s why I need to do what I’m doing so it isn't a rare occurrence. People don’t see women like me very often... I’d get excited too....I saw a poster advertisement at a bus stop in London and it had a black woman on a bike, and I was like "yes"! And I was excited to see that! So I can understand people seeing me as a novelty, but I wouldn’t call them a unicorn!

My family are really supportive, though my husband gets lonely and that’s hard. He rides but he doesn’t race, so he is at home while I am away on the road. 

My family is not sporty at all. I think everyone has played a sport in their life at some point, like at high school, but nothing beyond that.

In many non-white cultures women wouldn’t ride a bicycle. People say “women don’t ride bikes” and that stays with you and then you feel that you can’t do it. You feel like there’s something wrong with doing it, and you end up passing that down to your kids and your friends.  And when people see a woman riding a bike they think you are doing it because it’s not a choice, i.e. you can’t afford a car.

But for me, it is totally a choice. People were saying to me “Why are you doing this? You can take a train or drive a car to get to places.” And I would reply, “Well, I don’t want to!” Now I do have a car as it is useful for getting to bike races.

People are gonna think what they wanna think when they see me riding a bike, but if you keep on doing it it eventually becomes normal in their eyes too. Then they look at you and they say “She’s the one that rides a bike all the time!” They expect you to show up on a bike, and when you don’t it’s like "Whoa, what’s happened?!"

My most memorable race in recent times was some weeks ago when I got lost in a road race in the middle of Minesotta. I wasn’t feeling great that day and I got dropped off the back. The peloton made a turn and I didn’t. Well, there was a police officer and he flagged me through to go straight on. He didn’t tell me to turn, and I didn’t think anything of it. I wasn’t too far behind the peloton, and I kept riding – then I didn’t see them anymore, and I began to wonder if I should stop and ask if they’ve seen anyone up the road. Eventually I asked someone and I realised I’d gone wrong. I didn’t have a phone, didn’t know where I’m going…This wasn’t good! 

There was a farmer cutting his grass, who let me use his phone so I could look on the internet and find my way back. Then someone else who had seen me earlier stopped and helped me figure out how to get to the race course. I was embarrassed, but it wasn’t completely my fault. I wasn’t happy that I got spat off the back, and I was annoyed that the cop flagged me through at the turn. When I got back to the junction the cop was still there and he told me to turn. I thought, "Well it was a bit late to tell me now!"
It wasn’t my best race, but it was definitely memorable!

Other memorable races were when I won a Cat 4 Criterium Championships in New York a few years ago. I hadn’t been racing long that year, but I had very specific goals for it and it worked out that year. Then the next year when I wanted to do the whole pro thing I set out to win a State Championship race. I was very very focused on that day. I had a plan, I stuck to it, and it worked out again. I won the Cat 3 Road Championships in New York too. I am a very focused person when it comes to racing. 

www.aquickbrownfox.com
In the summer I raced in Belgium and the Netherlands – I did nine Kermesse races in the Netherlands and one in Belgium over two and a half weeks.

It’s a very intense experience, a bit shocking but the racing was incredible. I was able to line up next to world class talent, follow their wheels and learn more about racing. It was quite a challenge. The race courses were unlike anything I had ever experienced in the States. The terrain was more diverse than what I had raced before. 
There were bricks and cobbles and the road was was more narrow than what you get in the States. I had to take stock of all the road furniture, whereas in the States those things are often removed during the race prep by the organisers.  

I loved it, it made it more challenging, more fun, and made me feel like even more of a badass every time I crossed the finish line. It was a really nice boost to get some solid top tens and top twenties in UCI races abroad. This has made me a better bike racer, and I am definitely stoked on my experience.  

I want to push myself, challenge myself, and give myself a hard time so that I can learn to cope in hard races. Then later on I’ll have an easier time.

I don’t get so nervous when racing now. I used to, but now I have learned some good anxiety management. I have a system that works for me, by just trying to be in the moment and avoid thinking about all the things that could go wrong. 

I have goals for each race. My goal might be just to stay towards the front, or stay with the pack – having this to focus on, stops me worrying about how terrifying it is to race at that level! 


Before the races there is the call-up, and the US National Anthem being played, which goes on forever. That is the peak amount of time when nerves can build up, so I try to breathe, observe, and focus on my goals that I have set. 

I haven’t had any life-altering crashes, but I had a rough start to the season. I was quite sick during the Fall and the start of the season, so training was really challenging. I finally felt like I was feeling better, then I crashed in February and banged my head. I didn’t have concussion but I had to take a break just in case, as I had taken a pretty big hit. At the start of this season I was ready to have a great season but I kept having all these setbacks. It’s tough when you have ideas about where you are going, but life says, not this time, you’re actually gonna do this instead!

When I have set backs I just learn to keep going. My non-cycling life has always been a whirlwind of ridiculousness that I am pretty patient about things, and I am pretty good at maintaining a positive spirit and trudging on even if things are like insane.

I had a particularly tough time in senior high school when my dad died and I kind of shut down as a human. Then my early twenties were really challenging. I struggled a lot with depression and anxiety and I also have serious ADHD. Dealing with so many things at the same time and not really knowing how to deal with them was hard for me, and I eventually reached a breaking point.

I had been taking medication in high school but it made me feel like a zombie. I am not against medicine, as I think it works for some people, but I didn’t want it for myself. After I stopped my medicine I was floating out in the wind with all these issues and no real solution, until I saw a therapist who helped me to cope with all of that stress.
So in light of that I find I can cope with things better. 

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Where I live now in North California (El Sobrante, near Berkeley, California) is great for riding. There are a lot of beautiful quiet roads, with lots of climbing and diversity of terrain.
I really like the Three Bears loop, which is a popular circuit. It’s a succession of hills that is right by my house. There is also the Skyline loop which is beautiful, in the Berkeley Hills and super close. There’s also the Redwood loop at Moraga, near the Castro Valley in little California and that extends a long way down to other routes.
I will be moving soon and will really miss this area, as it has some of the best riding in the world.
Other places to go riding are Colorado, which has the Olympic training centre so there are some great roads to ride there. I also enjoy the South-East – Georgia, North Carolina, and South Carolina. 

My favourite place to ride has to be New York City though. I think it's a great passionate community, even if there can be a lot of animosity politically. It isn't just angry biking all the time though! You can do some nice bike rides around the city, and there is a bikeshare scheme, the Citi Bike, if you don't have your own bike. 

I am thankful for the support I have received so far in pursuing my goal. I have a coach who understands me, I get sponsorship and support from Cannondale, Sram, Oakley, Cycliq, and Skratch Labs. I am also grateful to Robin and Wendy Groot for organising the camp that afforded me the opportunity to race in Europe this summer. 

As for my goal for the rest of the season? Become a better racer and focus on getting a pro contract.




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